New Beginnings! May 17, 2010

I've got to get into the habit of using this more often...

I signed up for a digital photography fundamentals class - had the first one last Wednesday. I felt VERY cosmopolitan! Got to the coffee shop an hour early - went in and had an iced coffee and a raspberry/hazelnut bar (my stuff is better and the last bite had a gray hair sticking out of it...no, not mine and yes, I found it before it was in my mouth and no, I didn't complain) and read Nuvo. :)

The instructor went over camera settings and the 6 ways to compose a shot - and gave us homework...to take pictures to illustrate those 6 ways...in a BATHROOM. Not good. my bathroom is generally a mess - I've done the initial work (using Tim and Mary's bathroom) but if i have the time, I'll try more shots.

Speaking of Tim's bathroom...they moved into their new house this past weekend! My Timmy has a house to go along with the wife! and weirdest of all? He bought a WASHING MACHINE! The rest I find easy to deal with - the fact that he bought a washer? hard to wrap my head around the concept that Tim bought a WASHER.

They moved from their little apt (with lots of front steps) to a really nice house (with lots of front steps.) Yes, I ache all over. I kind of wish I had one of those step counters so I could actually know how many steps I took on Saturday. I'm sure it was up in the hundreds of thousands.

One of Tim's best friends is Mike D. Mike is one of the sweetest people ever, and he helped with the move - He made me smile with his constant good humor and funny ways. Evidently he has this idea for a sitcom...a gay guy living with his Grandfather. Well, knowing of my future divorce - he changed the idea to a gay guy living with the newly divorced Mom of his best friend! How funny! He's always called me Mrs. Franklin...I told him this weekend it's time he called me Kathy. Future possible roommates shouldn't be so formal.

Sunday I worked all day on packing and readying OUR house to be put on the market. This will be an ongoing chore for me until it actually sells. We hired a friend to paint upstairs with creamy colors and white trim - covering the grays, blues and DILL PICKLE GREEN the boys festooned their living space with. Chris the painter did a great job and it's simply beautiful upstairs -

I stayed home today from work to finish cleaning upstairs - the bathroom, all the floors, the paneling, the fans, on and on and on. I am determined that at least ONE weekend this spring I can enjoy myself instead of spending the entire time cleaning!

anyway - what else - all sorts of ideas are running around in my head as to my future. Do I stay with my current job? Do i rent an apt? buy a small house? What do i do with Charlie, the Cat? Do i look for a job up in Lafayette so I can be by the boys and their girls? So much is up in the air I get a little overwhelmed sometimes. I'm thinking i should just focus on the house right now but it would be nice to move only once.

I wish Dan and I were in this together - it would be so much easier to put my home of 18 years up for sale if when we left here, we left together. But I just don't think that's going to happen. Most of the time I'm ok with it - i'm trying to look at this divorce as a new adventure in my life rather than as a dreaded event. But I never thought I'd be going on alone - family and friends have been supportive, and the boys have been great - but I know in the end, at night? I'm going to be on my own. And it's a scary thing.